Probably seeing her can be said to be the best thing that has happened to me since the day I was informed through a call from one of her friends that she's made her decision, that she's concluded to leave me for a better cause.
What could I have done since there is no way of getting across to her…. Oh! There was, but I used the dream, but it seems she has disconnected every of our connection. I wouldn’t know if it is the case that she wants me to fast and pray before seeing her, probably she promised herself never to pop up for ever and ever, unknowingly to her; she was stabbing me every damn day because she is already part of me, my life.
Days roll over days, months over months, and even years over months, I kept hoping that I would one day get to her, wherever she is. The memories of her will not ever permit me to visit her house, I know she wouldn’t be there, but how would explain myself to her parents, especially her mother.
It remember the day she prayed for both of us, when she went to the kitchen to prepare me pounded yam and egusi soup. She was aware that I am still a student, however, she saw a future in me and with her daughter, I offered to pound the yam, she wouldn’t permit me to. My girlfriend who happened to be her daughter requested to make the soup cooking but she told her to stay with me in the sitting room. She is a very lovely and educated woman.
I could remember we sat together at the dining room, gisting and eating, she told me the funny things about my girlfriend, she told me how stubborn she can be, that she noticed the kind of person she would be even during her pregnancy. It was a very bright moment together with her. Now that her daughter has deemed it fit to let go of our relationship, how do I get to meet her mother without bringing tears into her eyes? She loved us together.
On a more serious note, the last thing I could think of is having her in a different world entirely and I hated her for being like that. She promised me a mansion of things which include the kind of children that we are to raise, God fearing, brilliant, intelligent and beautiful children.
She suggested names for the children and the way she will treat our children. She already made a man out of me; she encouraged me in being a responsible family man.
She fought against every of my ideas that were wrong and I also squeezed some of the bad attitudes off her. She really was a wife material and I was already building my home with her.
On the night she left, she was careful enough not to make me sense anything, the atmosphere was at its norm, maybe just too calm, but the breeze was enough for me, there was enough room for me to think about what is what. Two years after she had gone, I still maintain her memories at the deepest and darkest part of my heart so that no pest will tamper with it. Then she came knocking at my door, I opened and was very surprised seeing her just like that. She took me along with her to our best garden, it was just to calm, she have changed, she look more calm and very beautiful, she now own a very long shining dark hair, that which I always cherish from the whites, he maintains a glowing skin, her eye are very beautifully changed, her pupils are as shinning as pancan light and her eye brow well dressed. Her very white gown is as clean as the record of a saint and her nails well polished.
She now have a well polished way of speaking, she was sounding like she can speak in almost all languages. She was glad seeing me, I sensed she was, but at the same time, I felt that she was just trying to cover up her evil deed, I felt she left me for a rich an, probably one of the politicians. She was full of smiles, I saw tears lacing up in her eyes, I moved very close to her, forgot my pains and everything I had against her, I held her hand and helped her to clean the tears that are already dropping on her beautiful makeup, I held her very close and tight, I hugged her real tight, I was at that moment not for any reason concerned about her breathing, all I cared about is having her again, for ever and ever.
I realized that I have missed her more than I used to think of, the love I have for her is with no blemish. She was the best I ever had and right there I felt the world turning around, there was a strange wind circling around us, I was very scared of letting her disappear into the wind.
I saw my sold moved out, there was a clash at the middle of the wired wind, almost immediately, I saw the moon moving towards the sun, the sun was using its last strength to shine but the moon was not interested in the dramatic display of the sun and so it overpower the sun and I saw her disappearing into the wind, I immediately realized that I never said a word to her since I saw her, probably she was using my word box to stay, I composed myself to say something but the only thing I could utter was “this isn’t the promises you talked about” she could not reply until she was swallowed by the wind I tried picking her up pieces by pieces but I couldn’t before the moon stopped raping the sun, it became bright again, so strong to the extent that I was forced to close my eyes, on opening them back, I was back on earth…
I’ve not been myself since the day her friend called to tell me that my girlfriend kicked the bucket and that was the first and only dream I have about her.
Artwork By: Bertha Onyekachi
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